This is what my youngest declared happily to his new audiologist last week. To which she actually said, "You just might buddy."
His daddy, his beloved Papa and older brother wear them as does his half sister, who he's met a few times. She's much older and has her own life so she doesn't get to visit too often. So, aside from myself he is the only one without aids. So, I can see why he'd say it.
There is nothing wrong with that. Absolutely nothing!
He'd just finished his hearing eval though and the news was mixed to say the least. After being told for several years that his hearing was fine, I was just told that it was not. I wasn't upset at this though. I mean I was, obviously I was, how do people get to decide that a bottom of the "normal" range is NORMAL?! And then tell you, your child's hearing is fine.
I find out that his tympanograms show middle ear dysfunction of some kind, especially in one ear. That his last test and current test show a very mild hearing loss until you get to the higher frequencies, where he hears just fine. It sits directly on the border of where the "normal" hearing and "mild loss" line is. So, I guess that it's up for interpretation, but still in a family with a deaf history, don't you think that this was worth mentioning?!
I've been after him for months to pay attention, turn down the TV, turning my back when I talk to him, even walking away when I'm speaking, etc. Now, how awful do I feel?! The audiologist is concerned enough at where it sits to have us come back in another 4 weeks to recheck even.
So, am I upset? HECK YES! Am I upset that he might be aided? No.
Yes, that's right, no I am not upset at this. Is it wrong that part of me is hopeful that he gets his aids? I'm sure as a hearing parent some would say so. I mean we want our children to hear our voices, to hear theirs, right? Being really the only hearing person in this Deaf house though, I realize that it is just as important to HoH/Deaf people to want to have the same camaraderie. The only hearing boy in the house wants to be like his Papa, his daddy and his brother, what's wrong with that? Nothing.
My only concern is that all indications are that there is something in the middle ear not moving and that it might require more tests and possible surgery to fix. Though his loss is on both ears, indications are that one has this middle ear problem but, we won't know for another month!
It's always the waiting that kills me though. I hate waiting. I've never been good at it, you could ask anyone that knows me and while these boys have taught me some bit of patience, where it concerns them, I feel like that kid in the candy store who is told not to touch anything...I'm completely hopeless! lol
